But your life isn't over yet if you keep on living! Think of how you could live for at least as many years as you have already if you keep going, and you can do anything you want with those years. If it's led up to nothing so far, why not try something new with the next decade? It doesn't have to be a burden. I hope you can see it as a freedom. People may try to keep you down, and to abide by their norm, but we're all different. There's no right or wrong here, there's just a really complex mesh of varying forms of perception and understanding.
It's a shame that's the impression your getting, though I can assure you it's not the whole site. It's just a vocal minority. I really don't mind. I don't hate your art. It might not be what I'd want to look at personally, but I respect you for making what you want to make, and I don't see anything degenerative about it. Art can be anything. You channel your desires. You express yourself. It's supposed to be an outlet, and somewhere out there there's bound to be a bundle of people who desire the same things; are drawn to the same forms of expression. Just might take a while to find 'em.
I really hope you find your calling if you haven't already. If you have, I hope you find some positive things here too, and focus on that over the bad. There's a lot of people here who care for you. Hope you manage to focus on that.
Mistman7
Dude. This isn't okay. It's not tolerable. It doesn't matter whether it's real or not, either way it's got to stop. Quit cutting yourself. Get some therapy, talk to your parents.